Days of Eni's life

A few weeks ago I had some conflicting thoughts which I couldn't put clearly into words. But I believe every mother will be able to feel what I am trying to say here. I always had a love for work. Any work. It always gave me a sense of worth. I always put every effort in work because I felt I was contributing to something. Even though a lot of work was being a store assistant, I made sure I was one to be remembered. Working as an interpreter, I put heart into it, trying to help, not just translate. Work is good for the soul! I now have a deep love for my children. I get to spend every day with them. I give my all the best I can. I am truly blessed that I get to do this. I get to see their progress. Well, being stuck in the routine of raising them, I do not really notice their progress too fast, until someone points it out. Or I hear them play together nicely, or I hear Emma reading stories to Maya (Emma is 3, Maya almost 2) and both of them getting caught into the story world....

I haven't written anything in more than two years! Wow! Life flies by, and you can easily miss seeing the blessings if you don't stop to breath for a second. Yes, I am still working at Lidl. It's only one day a week, a 10 hour shift. And why is that? Because now I am a mother of two beautiful, smart, loving little girls. Even though it is the most exhausting thing being with them all the time, it is the most rewarding work. I am so proud of who they are becoming! I do not realise how rewarding it is until someone makes a comment like 'Emma sang with us!' or 'Your girls are so well behaved!' or 'Emma can speak three languages?' Yes, I am a proud mum, but I get swept away by all the playing and reading and singing and hugging that I do not step back to see the results. I just flow with it. So here is a BIG THANK YOU to all those who take a moment to point out to me something related to my girls. As it seems, I get easily side tracked by talking ab...

It's almost the middle of March, and I have been so busy with other stuff, that I haven't gotten yet to write in here. Today is such a beautiful day! It's sunny, the snow is almost completely gone, and in the sun it's warmer than in my room. Welcome, Spring :D This past week gave me a lot of things to think about. It started with this guy from work, we have become very close friends, and one night he asked me if I liked him... we had a kind of awkward conversation that ended up well. One of the things he asked me after we cleared the air was if he could be a good candidate for a relationship with me, and what things kept him from being one. I did not expect that question, so I didn't know what to say. I got home from work, and for the next couple of days I thought about it. I have to say that his personality suits mine perfectly. We have great conversations, very good laughs,  we say the same things at the same time, we trust each other, and we are very attrac...

Sunday was the worst day at work... I made many mistakes: I forgot to fill out the entire money transfer form, I cashed in a different car wash program, I cashed something in as VISA instead of cash... at the end of my shift, I was a wreck! The secretary kept calling me in the office every half hour (I was lucky to work only 6 hours). On Monday morning, I had my boss call me in the office, and show me all the mistakes, and I had to pay for some that couldn't get fixed on paper. I was so ashamed! I was so careful all day, not to mess up! I hate  making mistakes! I am very considerate, understanding, and supportive when others mess up, but when I do, I want to disappear, I am disappointed with myself. You can imagine how I felt when the secretary came, asking me to go see my boss in the office. In my head, I went through the whole day, trying to figure out what I had done wrong, but nothing came to mind. That would make anyone feel at peace, but it made me feel worse... what had I ...

I wasn't excited about working at OMV again, but I was glad I would end up working with my friends. I am on the same shift with the two slowest workers (and they take a lot of breaks!), which is tiering. I work 13 hour shifts, and at the end of the day I am barely walking. Do you know what makes me smile about this job? 1. Working on the computer (money transfers, work with the database to issue invoices, work with this cool technology gadget to emit vignetes...) 2. Friends to joke with to make time go faster 3. Customers who leave smiling 4. Customers who recognize me on the street, smile big and greet me 5. The tips I get at the end of the day 6. Schedule: 2 days work, 2 days off 7. My boss trusting me enough to rehire me, after I left twice to chase my dreams Yes, I admit: this is not my dream job, but it's not a bad job in the end. I have 6 months now to figure out what I want to do in the future, where I want to go, where I will settle down (hopefully, if not, i...